This is the start. I admit that I have said that before, but this time I feel different about it. I want more than anything to make a drastic change in my life. For too long I have put my own health aside with the excuse that I am "too busy." But yet I have found time to put in 50+ hour work weeks, do photography on the side, and adjusted my life for other things that I thought were "important." I realize that I just was not putting myself first.
Nutritious meals made way for quicker more satisfying junk food to fulfill my emotional needs and exhausted body. My mental state would be so exhausted that the desire to work out was quickly beat out by the desire to fall onto the catch after a long day at work.
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| March 2014: 191 pounds |
This photo was taken last month at a family get together. One of the few that I actually kept the tag on for Facebook. I rarely have any photos of myself on Facebook any more. I am embarrassed to even show this, but that tells me it is the reason that I need to. I want to feel proud of myself again, not embarrassed. I am proud of every other aspect of myself except for the way I look. I have a husband that I adore and love to spend time with, I am financially stable, I love my job and have recently been recognized for a my hard work.
I worked hard to achieve all of those things. Now it is time to work hard to achieve a healthy body. As my husband and I are trying to become pregnant, that is my biggest motivator. Last year, January 2013, I suffered an unfortunate miscarriage at 10 weeks. It took me 8 months to recover emotionally and feel that I wanted to try again. Now that I am emotionally ready, I need to get my body physically ready as well.
Here we go. Day 1 . . . I have two simple goals for this week:
- No candy or soda.
- Workout for at least 30 minutes every day
